its finally hit me

It has finally hit me that I am leaving tomorrow. Somewhere after my lunch with cousin Tami today it just hit me. My whole family is moving to different places right now. Natalie to Vegas. Scott to the military. Steph graduates. And Mom and Dad have the house for sale and are moving somewhere sooner or later. It just hit, I probably won't ever come home to where I think of as home again.
I went for a drive through the area I consider to be "my home." And just let myself cry through the whole drive. I'm excited for my move, but I haven't had a chance to really stop and get scared about all the changes yet. Well, that's changed now. It's hit and I'm terrified.
To add insult to injury, when I got home I had to pack the roof carrier by myself. To give you a mental picture, remember I'm only 5'3" and the carrier is sitting on a 6 ft car. And the carrier doesn't stay propped up. And I have a bad shoulder I have trouble raising over my head. So I packed everything in really little bags that I can lift with one arm, and then hold the carrier open with the bad arm that goes numb after a few seconds, and then use momentum to swing the bag up and over and into the carrier. Not the safest or smartest way to do it. And I fell off my stool more than once. I would have called someone and asked for help, but I couldn't think of one person who would or could come over to help me with it. And I did the whole thing while crying. I probably scared the neighbors, but oh well.
Anyway, yes, there you have it. I'm packed. Now to clean. And just go. This time tomorrow I'll be gone!