... When you know full well it is making you happy?
There's something on my mind that I want to flesh out with writing. Hopefully it can be done without details or specifics. (As I think most people know is not my strong suit.)
How do you let go of what it is you thought would make you happy and embrace the thing that is making you happy? And why on earth isn't that easy? If something is making you happy, why is it so hard to accept it and believe it? And let go of the thing, thought, idea, (pipe)dream that you thought would make you happy?
Is it just the changing of plans? Forgetting what it is you thought you wanted? Making new plans? Or just not wanting to admit that maybe all your bright ideas and dreams were not quite right? (read: erin is still in denial in accept that her plan was wrong)
Or am I 2 seconds away from the epiphany that I have finally reached that magical place where if you just let go of what you thought you wanted, you find out something else makes you much happier?
By writing it am I admitting I am happy? Maybe. There's still some denial in me that I am. Therefore, none of this ever happened. Right?
One of the hardest things in life is to accept that what you want and what is best for you and will bring you the most joy are two entirely different things.
ReplyDeleteBy the way, I'm very pleased with your progress. I congratulate myself for being such a fantastic influence on you. ;o) heh heh...
You're freaking me out, man.
ReplyDeleteBut I think you're happy. And I'm glad about that.