sleep deprived ramblings of a mad woman

It is 4:45 am. I just think you should know that before you read on too far. Heaven only knows where my brain may take us at this time of the night, or morning, as the case may be.
Did you know that Hulu doesn't post the previous day's shows until approximately 6 am? I'm guessing this is because Hawaii has to watch everything in prime time before they can go live online. I really do not agree with this time. I would much rather prefer my shows go live around 3 or 4 am. But alas, the networks don't care what I think.
Also, just so you know, CBS, (who doesn't post their shows on Hulu) puts up their shows at 5 am. Which means in 15 minutes I can get around to watching NCIS. And I do love me some NCIS.
My new life of working nights has been good and busy. I'm grateful to be working. Happy to be helping a family member. But wishing, oh so very badly, that my body would make the transition to vampire just a little bit smoother. A million moons ago I worked as a 911 operator. I had a rolling schedule back then where we would work 3 days, 2 nights, 3 off, then the next week 3 nights, 2 days, 2 off. My poor body really never accepted that lifestyle well. I had to use food to keep myself awake, no matter what time it was. I was tired at night and I was tired during the day.
Not surprisingly, I gained a good 15-20 lbs in just the first 3 months of working there.
I'd really rather that not happen again! I just barely lost 20 lbs! I don't want to have to lose it again!
But things are good here, folks. All good things going on, well, except my serious lack of sleep. I had a great weekend, the week is progressing nicely, and I'm excited to go to my cousin's wedding this weekend. (Cousin, are you reading this? I think you are. See you Friday! Also, can you arrange for cute single men my age to be there? K? Thanks! I promise to bring you an extra nice gift in exchange.)
But let's change subjects completely.
Want to hear something cool?
Out of the blue, and I do mean out of the clear blue sky, I got an email from one of my personal role models this week. I've complained often enough (mostly in my column, but in other places as well) that there is a serious lack of good, strong, LDS, professional, single women role models. It is hard to find someone to look up to that you can really relate to. (There are excellent, good, strong LDS women in this world. It is finding the single professional ones that is so hard. We just don't recognize or notice them very often.) But this woman (who, for the moment I will not reveal), does a great job of balancing everything. She is married now, but at one time she was a divorced, professional, mother. She's a professional motivational speaker and author. I heard her speak when I was younger, and have admired her ever since.
So you can only imagine my complete surprise when she contacted me! Her note was kind and thoughtful, and just blew me away. It made me really wake up and realize how often we don't know who is watching us. Then today I got a text from "Little." She told me she had a dream about me and my dog. In it she referenced something that I have never said or done with her. But it sounded just like something her mom would say. It made me laugh at first. But again, it made me realize how important setting an example can be. Her mother has set a certain, good example. And now Little assumes that because that is important to her mother, it would also be important to me. (J- since I know you'll be reading this- it was about not using crazy nail polish cause it would look bad at work.)
I'm not sure where I'm going with this. After all, it is almost 5 am, and I'm a little delirious. (I really do hold up very well until right about 4 am. And then I hit the wall!)
I guess what I'm saying is, you never know who is watching, and what sort of impression you are leaving on them.
Now, if you don't mind, Very Special Agent Anthony DiNozzo is waiting for me. And I hate to keep a man waiting.