List Update- If you can achieve puberty, you can achieve a past.

I have revised the "List," mostly out of necessity. Guy #1 remains in the same position he's always been in. I should mention here that he's only #1 because he's been on the list for so long now, not because he's so great that he's #1 with me. If anything he deserves last place for managing to take so freaking long. The previous guy #2 is surprisingly playing the dark horse card now. My guess is someone is feeding him insider's information, but he's doing better than originally expected. He's not sending me smiley faces anymore, which is a huge improvement. Guy #3 is off the list for inactivity purposes. But rather than confuse anyone by replacing him, or maybe because I'm hoping he comes back into play, his player number is not getting reassigned. The application for #4 has finally been accepted. I was in denial over allowing him on to the list for a while there, but since the worst thing I have to say about him is "he has a past" I've decided to let him on. (In the immortal words of Dolly Parton, "If you can achieve puberty, you can achieve a past.") And I'm doing the unprecedented thing here, and also allowing a Guy #5 onto the list. Its been years since I allowed that many guys onto the list. But since all 5 guys are the slowest movers ever, its really not that significant. (except for #5- he was surprisingly fast, which may work against him in the end. we'll see.) So 5 guys on the list who all 5 have the annoying habit of talking to me only once a week. And for those of you keeping track of the statistics, that would be 2 mormon boys, 3 non-mormon boys. And with that many guys on the List, I just may have an enjoyable holiday season.

Oh, and to those of you suggesting that I ask out any one of these guys. No. I just don't do that. Why would I waste my time asking out a guy when there are 4 other guys to entertain me?

And for all of youasking how my anger management worked out over the weekend. I'm feeling better now. There's more than a few contributors on here who can tell you that I have vented and vented well recently. I'm getting things out. And I decided its time to take things back into my own hands. I picked up a second job at the mall (to pay for that little Christmas trip to Europe), and decided to start volunteering at the fire department again. The one thing I always learned at the fire department was that there is always someone who has it worse off than I do. If you ever need a few minutes of humbling, spend a few hours on the fire truck. There is always someone out there having a bad enough day to make you grateful for what you have. Serving others and getting an adrenaline rush on the side is always a good thing.