Today I am in Tampa, FL, at a SOCOM trade show. It's an interesting change of pace from a law enforcement show. At LE shows all the guys are trying to be more manly than the last guy and are all there to let me know they know more than me. But military shows tend to be a bit more humble (which I wasn't expecting at a Special Ops show). These guys are mostly officers and aren't afraid to admit they haven't held a pistol since they qual'd on it twenty years ago. (Enlisted guys are a different story for a different day.) Anyway, my point? It's nice to be at a show where the person on the other side of the table actually listens to what you have to say. And when they call me "Ma'am" I don't feel like it was condescending (usually).
But back to our regularly scheduled Erin's rants and thoughts on life...
By the time most of you read this it will be Thursday. And Thursday is the last day of "A Single Thought by Erin and Juli." An era has come to an end, and we have put the caps on our pens and signed off from our column. I'm a little sad to see it go, but relieved at the same time. It has opened new doors to us, given us the confidence to pursue dreams, and brought us many new friends. (Half of the friends on my blog list are because of the column!) I'm looking forward to new projects in my future and having the creative time to try some new ideas. But check us out- our editors seem to think our sign off was one of the funniest columns we have ever done.
Let's see... what else? Give me time and I'll bring up the men, or lack thereof, in my life. Hanging out solo in a hotel room has never been good for my psyche. It gives me way too much time to think, analyze, re-analyze, and debate internally every little detail about a relationship (or lack thereof) in my head. This week it has been over a guy that tends to run hot, and then tends to disappear on me. When he's around, he's a clown, and he's the best. I adore him. But he's just not so good at always being around. And I have been debating over and over whether or not to find away to put us around each other just a little bit more. The old fashioned "rules" girl in me, says make him be the one to come to me. If he wants to be around, he'll be around. I shouldn't have to "find" ways to make things happen.
I'm also replaying a past event over and over in my head. I'm a big believer in forgiveness for all things said in the heat of the moment and anger. It's the things said with malice aforethought I don't forgive as readily. A while back someone said and did a few things that hurt me considerably at the time. I truly believe he/she did not mean to hurt me, but at that time he/she was hurt, backed into a corner, and came out swinging. Some pretty awful things were said. Some time has passed, and an olive branch has been extended. But the healing process is bringing back the pain and causing me to remember the awful parts. I'm trying to focus on the good points, the positive things that made the person my friend in the first place. But sometimes that is easier said than done.
I need to get home to the real world where I have too much to do to be lost in my thoughts.
Does anyone have any amazing suggestions for affordable plane tickets to SLC? I'm dying to get out there to visit my sister, but I can't find a ticket for less than $400!! And US Airways has the worst frequent flyer miles program in the world. Boo!!
Sorry to see Single Thought go; I've really enjoyed reading it (even if I only started a few weeks ago).
ReplyDeleteAs far as fares--try Southwest out of BWI; I got a round trip from there last year for about $300. With a special, it should be even cheaper (if you can find one). Much less hassle at the airport than Dulles, even if farther away.