There's a lot of things going on in my life right now that I am not blogging about. They are very personal things that are causing a lot of emotional and stressful responses in me and those closest to me right now. I have to admit, while on one hand it is nice to not have a job while all of these things are happening so I can be of service and really allow a full reaction in myself, I also wish I was working so I wouldn't have so much time to think about some very sad things. Finding the balance between having the time to think about "things," and thinking too much is proving to be more stressful than I could have imagined.
On top of the personal issues going on there is the never-ending cycle of job interviews. I am told I interview well, and so far the interviews are going well. This week I interviewed at two new companies. The jobs are nearly identical. The salaries, however, are not. In fact, one pays a little less than I used to be making and has horrible benefits, and the other pays double what I was making and has stock options. And both jobs are nearly identical to what it is I used to do. It's disconcerting to have such a vast difference in compensation. It really makes you question whether or not you are qualified, or what they are hiding in the job description. I'm very tired of the whole game.
Between the stress of the interviews and the personal issues going on I'm ready for a vacation. And what I wouldn't give for some sun and a good nap right now!
Yeah, I hear you on the thinking-too-much thing. But if you're anything like me, you'd just be more stressed out with a job because your performance would be affected by all the thinking-too-much. So perhaps you can concentrate on some things you need to get done around the house, some writing, the same kinds of things that would distract you if you were working?
ReplyDeleteGood luck with the job hunt, still. Here's hoping the higher-paying ones are the better companies!