Now I've had the time of my life, no I never felt like this before

Today was full of highs and lows, just like so many other days of unemploymentville. Let's dwell on the highs today, and keep the lows in denial. First, thank you for your happy thoughts let to my last post. I really appreciate them.
I got an unexpected email from an old friend today. (She knows who she is, and knows that I know she's reading this.) It came from the heart and really cheered me up. The strange part is that it wasn't intended to be a cheer up letter. She sent a truly "I get it" email. It really felt good to feel loved by an old friend, and to know I'm not alone in my frustrations and experiences lately. To that friend- thank you.
As things tend to do when a friend from the past comes up, one thing lead to another and we began discussing boys we had crushes on back in the day. I think she and I crushed on many of the same boys, and frequently at the same time too. I revealed to her one of my better high school secrets. (I kissed a boy we all knew and never told my girlfriends!)
It got me thinking about so many old friends and crushes that I have lost touch with. So I did what any self-respecting social media marketing expert would do- I looked them all up on Facebook.  And then, without thinking about it at all, I requested to be friends with them. And then five minutes later I found out that there is still a very self-conscious, nervous, scared to talk to her crush, 14 yr old inside of me, that is panicking that her crush might say no.
How silly of me! Is it possible to laugh at your own insecurities? Because I'm getting a good laugh out of my own stupidity right now. And yet, it isn't making my inner 14 yr old calm down at all. Go figure.
Next thing you know I'm going to be teasing my bangs and wearing acid wash jeans again. And digging up my old They Might Be Giants albums.
Actually, I think I will go dig up those albums anyway. They're still awesome.
For my old Centreville friends, I give you this video. Its preposterous to think back to my youth without including this song.



(The song title to this post also has a fun meaning for my youth. Anyone (besides Cindy) want to guess what it is?)